myOtaku.com: Yaoishoujo

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1982-05-04
Gender
• Female
Location
• California, USA
Member Since
• 2005-01-04
Occupation
• Consumer Goods
Real Name
• Heather

Personal

Achievements
• Don't ask....
Anime Fan Since
• 1998
Favorite Anime
• I love too many anime!
Goals
• To become a great yaoi writer and to become a psychologist(maybe)
Hobbies
• Writing, collecting anime/manga and anime merchandise, collecting everything and anything yaoi
Talents
• Writing, singing(as people say -_-;;;), helping people

myOtaku.com: Yaoishoujo

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

Feeling Better

I would like to thank everyone for your kind words and support.*bows and hugs* It means the world to me, but more importantly, I'm sure it made Lindey happy.^^ A lot of you went her to her site and her friend, aodtr666's, site and I couldn't be more grateful. Honestly, I didn't expect so many people to head over to their sites to give their loving support. It brings tears to my eyes. You guys are the best and I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

I would like to specialy thank two people who helped in more ways than one:

whitecat~thank you for posting your concern on your site. It pulled at my heart strings as I read how concerned you were for me. You are truly a one in a million friend. Thank you so very much. I love you!*hugs tight*

Linda(Steptoussai)~you have been there for me no matter what the circumstances and I love you more for just that fact alone. Thank you for your touching banner. I'm so glad I have you as a friend. My sweet Linda, thank you so very much for being such a wonderful and caring friend. I love you!*hugs tight*

Man, what a day it's been. Last night and this morning was definetely the toughest. As soon as I read the sad PM from aodtr666, I immediately ran into my room and sobbed on my bed. My sis came in, wanting to know what was wrong. I told her about it and how I blamed myself for not noticing the signs sooner. She kept telling me that it wasn't my fault and that I shouldn't blame myself for something I had no control over. Though I knew that to be true, I was too forgone to think clearly. My mind was fogged with saddness, confusion, and guilt. We both discussed what kind of banner I should make for her and, if possible, what kind of music I should play on my site in her honor. We got quite a few in our heads, so, hopefully, I'll be able to make that a reality.

Let's just say, waking up this morning was tough. I was still out of it from last night, which my mom and sis noticed right away and avoided speaking to me so I may be alone in my thoughts. I love them both so dearly.^^ As soon as I pulled up in the parking lot of my job, I began to cry. But, of course, those had to be wiped away due to the fact that I didn't want to be late. All in all, I cried... no, sobbed about 5 or 6 times during the first two hours of my shift. I told only 4 people about my friend and why I was so upset. Three gave condolences and the other said what my mom had the night before, "How do you know it's not some kind of trick?" I told them both that I trust Lindey and her friend aodtr666. If it were some kind of prank, someone would've said something by now. Plus, I don't think they'd want to risk being hated by almost everyone on MyO just for a laugh. That doesn't sound like the Lindey I knew and cared about. Back to what I was saying, I was starting to wonder if I could make it through my whole shift. The effects of stress and saddness were taking a toll on me, not only emotionally, but physically as well. My chest was hurting and my body was aching. Luckily, after a few hours, I began talking and interacting with people. I hated being zoned out. About 15 minutes before my shift ended, I got to talk to Jeff up in the break room. He was having a shitty day, too, cuz our fucktard store director, David, was being a shit to him and Ron. Unfortunately, I could hear Ron getting chewed out in the office. I really like Ron as a manager and as a person, so it hurt to hear him try in desperation to defend himself for something he didn't do or had no control over.>_< Damn, I REALLY hate David! But, anyway, Jeff and I talked about my deceased friend and about how mad he was today. It was nice. It really helps to talk to someone about your problems. Thank goodness he was up there, ready to talk.

Well, that was my emotional day in a nut shell. I'm exhausted just thinking about it.-_- When I got home, my sis and I watched the Saiyuki Movie and volumes 2 and 3 of Peacemakers. Oh...yeah, that's right. I wanted to tell Inuyasha 311 that I finally started to watch Peacemakers. Are you proud of me 311?!^_^ I LOVE that series! It's so cute! The Saiyuki Movie was awesome as hell! Man, I love those 4 guys!*huggles* After we were done, I had to high tail it to Comics Factory to return the dvds.^^;

Oh, yeah, you guys have seen that I have changed my bg and avatar, ne? It'll be like this for a week or so as a remembrance for Lindey. I want her to be remembered by many who may visit my site. High hopes, I know, but it's the least I can do for her. She meant a lot to me.

On a side note, I'd like to thank KuramasGirl for making me an early bithday banner.^_^*hugs* Thank you so very much my friend. I didn't expect anything like that from anyone. You made my day better and I couldn't ask for a better friend. Thanks again. I'll post it on my b-day, ne!?^^

Here are some pics about how I felt or are just random angels that represent Lindey. Hope you like them.

This was me last night and this morning. Sora knows my pain.Y_Y

That was the most pics I've ever posted, wasn't it?=^_^= I couldn't help myself since there were a lot of good ones. Anyhoo, I won't be getting to your sites tonight, cuz it's 2:30am and I have work at 8am.^^;;; I need my rest. I'll visit you guys tomorrow. I'm sorry if you've been feeling neglected by me.*bow* I don't mean to not visit... I've just had other things going on... like recently. I hope you understand and know that I love every one of you. Have a great day, minna. Love ya to pieces!^_^

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