myOtaku.com: Yaoishoujo

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1982-05-04
Gender
• Female
Location
• California, USA
Member Since
• 2005-01-04
Occupation
• Consumer Goods
Real Name
• Heather

Personal

Achievements
• Don't ask....
Anime Fan Since
• 1998
Favorite Anime
• I love too many anime!
Goals
• To become a great yaoi writer and to become a psychologist(maybe)
Hobbies
• Writing, collecting anime/manga and anime merchandise, collecting everything and anything yaoi
Talents
• Writing, singing(as people say -_-;;;), helping people

myOtaku.com: Yaoishoujo

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Good and Bad

Okay people, I've got good and bad news. Let's begin with the bad, shall we, since that's what happened first!?*takes deep breathe* Okay, here we go:

You guys remember that person I confessed my feelings to right? Well, that person emailed me today and basically said they don't love me any more than as a best friend. This person was very nice about it, though. They told me that it wasn't my fault and that it was their's.*small laugh* This person still wants to remain best friends and that alone is good enough... I guess. When I read the email, I started sobbing. It broke my heart into a million pieces. But, the thing that forced me out of the comp room was the pic this person sent me of two anime characters kissing. They said this reminding them of all the kisses we shared. That was it! I ran into my room and sobbed my ass off. It hurt so much. My chest began throbbing in pain. The only other time I've ever been this heartbroken was during some of the beakups my last boyfriend and I had. After about 10 minutes, I composed myself and walked back into the comp room to reply to this person's email. That was so hard to do. My hands were shaking as I typed and I couldn't stop crying. I told this person that I did still want to be friends and not watch it wither die, like I thought it was. What caused me to stop typing was the word tenshi. I always called this person my little tenshi(angel) and they called me their gaurdian angel. I ran into my room, got my phone, and called the above said ex-boyfriend. I needed someone to talk to and I knew he was the one. He's my best friend, after all. I finished the email and drove to his house. I picked him up and headed to his workplace. As I told him the situation, I began sobbing again. As soon as we got to the parking lot, he had about a little over an hour to spare before his shift began, so we sat in my car and talked. Though I knew it hurt him to sit there and listen to me sobbing over someone else I loved, I knew he didn't mind. He told me that, even though it was painful to watch me move on with little chance of ever getting back with me, he was willing to try to go back to the way things were back in high school. To just be best friends and nothing more. I've gotten over him, but he's a different story. He's very sensitive and tends to not want to let go to the things he loves.^^ That's okay, though.

Anyway, back on subject, it really helped me to talk about it and it was rather fun. He was talking to me about all the cute guys he saw at work and a couple of gay guys he might end up liking.^_^ He's bi, if you're wondering. Just like me! I'm so proud of him. He came out about two years ago. It was awesome! I was so happy.^___^*shakes head* Back on subject(sorry guys), he ended up being a coupe minutes late to work cuz we were talking so much.-_-; Oops!

Anyway, after taking a shower once I got home, my mom and sis came home. Time to tell them the truth about myself and the person who I fell for. As to be expected from them, I was welcomed with praise and understanding. My mom sat next to me on the floor, put her arm around me, and kept saying what a brave thing I did. I was so scared. I hugged my legs close and shook like a leaf in the wind. I knew I had nothing to fear, though. My mom told me and my sis a long time ago that she'd support and be there for us no matter who we are or what we do. I'm truly lucky to have her for a mother. She's great!^_^ My sis was understanding and they both treated me no differently. It was like another day after all was said and done. We all went to the Olive Garden for dinner, then went to a fabric store to get materials for our cosplay outfits. My sis got hers all bought, but I still need to search for mine. Mom said it'll be pretty simple, though.^_^

Well, anyway, the above news after the heartbreak was the good news.*sweatdrop* I feel better, even though it'll take me awhile to get over my crush and accept things as they are.*heavy sigh* Love hurts.

I hope you guys had a great day.^_^ I'm thinking about putting up a new bg soon, cuz you guys are probably getting sick and tired of Sanzo's boney body and Hakkai's disturbing smile.LOL^O^ I have a pretty good idea of what I want it to be, but I'm not too sure.*thinks* What do you guys think? Yup, that's right, I'm putting the spotlight back on ya.MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!*cough, cough* Um, yeah, so I'll give you guys a list of choices, okay.^^ Here they are:
1)DN Angel
2)X
3)Naruto
4)random yaoi
5)Wild Adapter
6)another Saiyuki
7)dragons
8)Gravitation
9)FMA
10)Yu Yu Hakusho
11)Get Backers(will be yaoi)
12)Air(new anime not released)
13)another Sukisyo
14)Yugioh(specify if you want yaoi or not)
15)Fruba
16)Bronze/Zetsuai
17)random whatever pic
18)Finder Series(yaoi manga)
19)Spiral
20)Bishounen
21)Tactics
22)Inuyasha
23)Legal Drug(Clamp shounen-ai)
24)CCS(Yukito bg)

And there you have it! Yea, I know it's a long list, but I wanted to give you guys options. Have a great day guys! Love ya!*blows kiss*

Look, a hot pic of Touya during a soccer match. Yummy!^___^

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