Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Genjitsu Wo Warau by Tokyo Jihen

I sumitted one wallpaper. And some # of E-cards.

I feel so proud of myself.

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Bold all that apply:



01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year.

02. I still watch cartoons.

03. I've never seen The O.C.

04. I love almost all music.

06. I want a tattoo.

07. I wear glasses.

08. But mostly to read the blackboard and drive.

09. I want more piercings.

10. But I can't ever get any more.

11. I love to watch the rain.

12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.

13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger.

14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.

15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.

16. I cry about stupid things.

17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.

18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.

19. I love music.

20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.

21. I often feel alone.

22. I'm sometimes a loud person.

23. A boy shattered my heart into a million pieces.

24. I get depressed sometimes.

25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.

26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.

27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.

28. I'm a weird person.

29. I consider myself pretty unique.

30. My eyes are brown.

31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.

32. I am a disappointment to myself.

33. I love sleeping.

34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.

35. I have a few close friends.

36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.

37. I need to lose weight.

38. I like popcorn.

39. I love watching tv.

40. I like malls.

41. I like cold weather better than hot.

42. I really dig Depeche Mode.

43. I love Winter.

44. I'm addicted to AIM.

45. I have trouble trusting people.

46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."

47. I love my family...

48. I loathe hot weather.

50. I hate shaving my legs.

51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.

52. I like to listen to music everyday.

53. I love white tigers.

54. I like the snow

55. I don't always like the way I look.

56. I used to cut myself.

57. I'm a daydreamer.

58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.

59. I like to be with my boyfriend/girlfriend.

60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.

61. I love all my friends.

62. I'm allergic to milk.

63. I wish people would stop making me cry.

64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.

65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school.

66. I love all candy

67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.

68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.

69. I wear pants a lot.

70. I am often bored.

71. I like to say what's on my mind.

72. I hate blue jeans.

73. I'm online a lot.

74. I have 2 goldfish.

75. I am for the most part happy with myself.

76. I need to work out more.

77. I like being alone at certain times.

78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.

79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.

80. I hate shallow people.

81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.

82. I ponder life way too much.

83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.

84. I wish my brother didn't die.

85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.

86. I need to be showed I'm loved.

87. I wish I was better.

88. I hate discrimination.

89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.

90. I have a cute car.

91. I love glitter.

92. I sometimes wish I was more social.

93. I love my close friends.

94. I love to have fun.

95. I get amused easily.

96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.

97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.

98. I love to be me.

99. I like wearing hoodies.

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Monday, May 23, 2005

Beautiful Dirt by Dir en Grey

So, the guy that supposedly almost died. Didn't almost die. His dad did.

Which is very sad because he was only what? In his 30s? And yet, I still don't know how it happened.

The East Coast Trippers came back today. [ie. East Coast Tripper: (noun) someone who went on the East Coast Trip] Their stories were funny. Like these 3 guys almost for the people next year banned from the Marriott. They trashed the whole room.

Crap and ice cream were on the walls. Stephen pissed in the coffee pot and boiled it. Tyler smelled it and puked. He also ran into a mirror. What a dork. XD

But no pictures from the Amish People. It's against their religion. TT_TT NOOOO!!!! Darn it all. But I hugged my Victor when he came back. And my Yanina. But not my Sam. Because I just didn't.

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So this post will not be about my day. But more likely how 'stupid' my friend currently is.

She has a boyfriend. A very loving one, in fact. And while she's on the East Coast Trip. Goes out with another guy. [You should know this, Cookie!!] Fully knowing that her boyfriend loves her very much. And yesterday they spent the whole day with each other [her and her first boyfriend] telling each other how much they love each other. And the other one is totally oblivious.

Why would she do that to him? Break his heart and stuff. That just isn't right. Now, her and Dude are fighting because she though Dude spreaded rumors about it when she didn't.

I don't know. She's just being stupid. But I don't show it to her that I know alot of things. I just don't her to hear another lecture from me when she already got one from Dude.

It just isn't right though.

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Wake by Dir en Grey

I hate you.

Just kidding.

I love you.

Not kidding.

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10 Random Things About Me



10. I like sleeping with noise.

9. I like singing 'oldies'.

8. I hate having confused feelings.

7. I 'wear' a 'mask' everyday. [If you know what I mean]

6. I have a 'thing' for mushy ballads. [Guilty pleasure]

5. I hate corn. And okra.

4. I have a love/hate relationship with Math.

3. I hate very talkative people.

2. I wish my name was Audrey. [It's sounds so..pretty?]

1. I have secret feelings no one knows about.



9 Places I've Visited



9. P.I. [the Philippines]

8. Korea [somethere there]

7. Japan [somewhere there]

6. N.Y.C

5. Washington, DC

4. [insert #] states of the US

3. --

2. --

1. --



8 Things I Want To Do Before I Die



8. Visit:

Germany

France

Switzerland

Denmark

Alot of other places I haven't listed...

7. Be fluent in any language

6. At least meet the love of my life..

5. Meet a J-rocker...!!!!

4. Actually get an 'A' in Math for once.

3. Be able to sing in front of people..and not just by myself.

2. Learn to cook more food..

1. Tell everyone I love them and mean it.



7 Ways to Win My Heart



7. Move me with a tear-jerking ballad. No matter how bad your voice is.

6. Be yourself, dude, not anyone else.

5. Actually, 'interact' in a conversation with me. Don't just nod and say 'Yea'.

4. Make me laugh.

3. Don't be rude. Karma, dude. Karma.

2. Don't be too engrossed in your own hobbies. I live too.

1. Respect me, yourself, and others. [reference: #3]



6 Things I Believe In



6. Everyone has a talent.

5. Everyone has a love.

4. Everyone has a natural beauty.

3. Rivers [from Weezer] is geek sex.

2. No one should ever be lonely.

1. Love has no boundaries.



5 Things I'm afraid Of



5. Claustrophobia

4. Being hated.

3. Being in an unfamiliar place.

2. Having no one to love.

1. Being all by myself.



4 Favorite Items In My Room



4. My bed.

3. My fan.

2. My bookcase.

1. My alarm clock.



3 Things I Do Everyday



3. Shower.

2. Drink water/eat.

1. Read while listening to music.



2 Things I Try Not To Do



2. Be mad.

1. Be sad.



1 Person I Want To Strangle



1. That can't be possible.

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Boredom rocks.

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

Feel Good Inc. by Gorillaz

Thank you gu ys for your wonderful comments.

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Today's the Inuyasha movie on Adult Swim.

I've never seen it, so I'm gonna watch it. Err..yea.

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Friday was fun. I was going around to people I know saying:

'I hate you'

No response.

'Just kidding'[smiles]

Laughs.

Yea, that's basically how it went. But sometimes I had to hug people to show that I really didn't hate them.

But Nick's face was priceless. He just looked at me really really sad and confused. Like he was gonna cry or something. It was funny though, cause after I said 'Just kidding', my friend and I were cracking up.

I even said it to Die-kun, but he just smiled at me. [No, no. I still haven't gotten over Gackt-san. And I will listen to your advice[s]. I promise!] So, yea. That's all he did.

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Totchi-san and I have a routine. And it really cracks me up.

So, whenever we look at each other, we wave. And he waves funny to. He waves like I do. Moving my fingers. It's funny when you see him do it. My friend says he waves like a girl. XD

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One of the East Coast Trippers came back on Friday.

Because he almost died. Can you imagine? We don't know what happened. Or how it happened. We just know that he almost died. My friends that knew him were crying all over.

I just wanted to give him a hug. But, no. I don't know him enough to give him one.

But still.

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Friday, May 20, 2005

Memory by Sugarcult

It's such an everyday life addiction. And routine.

I can't get it out of my system.

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Everytime I turn my back. I turn around and come back again.

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Do you hate me because I don't talk to you? Do you hate me because I don't love you? Do you hate me because I don't say hi?

Or do you hate me because you know who's the one for you?

Do you hate me? Do you hate me?

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I guess I still kinda like Gackt-san.

Anyone want to cure me?

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana

So..

I guess I won't be posting here for a while.

Maybe a long one. Maybe a short one.

I just don't know anymore. I'll just go on a break.

I might visit and not comment. Whatever.

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So..

I love you all very much. [gives out air kisses]

And..

Au revoir [because I heard that doesn't really mean 'goodbye'].

Or, until next time my ever-dear Lovelies.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Miss You by Blink 182

Well, Gackt-san is back today.

But I wasn't really..'happy' to see him. I just said 'Oh hey, he's back.'

And then that's kinda it.

My last post was kinda sad. And yea.

But really. I don't think I like anyone right now. Maybe my Gackt-san days are over...tempararily.

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So. My friend is back! Yay! Now, she's not chicken pox-ed. But 'So-Soft Arms' is. Hahah. I talked to him after school on my friend's cell phone. Sounded like a gay Mexican. But it's okay. He wasn't mad at me..

I'm not getting why there's guys out there that like me..

o_0I find nothing at all that would make me like myself if I was a guy..

Really. It bothers me too they're always trying to 'hang out' with me. >.< Rargh!

But thanks for your hugs yesterday when I really need them. You guys rock.

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Monday, May 16, 2005

Bye Bye Mr. Mug by the Brilliant Green

I don't know.

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Maybe I'm heart-broken.

Mysteriously. Okay, so maybe it's true. I do miss Gackt-san. And a whole lot of it.

And, okay, so maybe I do kinda love Gackt-san and not Die-kun as much.

So maybe I hate it that Gackt-san isn't back yet. And maybe I do get jealous when other people like him.

And so maybe I really do hate it when I heard he got a girlfriend. [in Florida]

My heart hurts so much, that I want to just cry. But I don't feel tears coming. Just invisble tears that my heart sheds.

Is that so wrong?

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So, maybe I am heart-broken. Maybe I'm just a little hurt.

Just maybe.

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Friday, May 13, 2005

SPEENA by Speena

So..I'm alright now. Still sick, but yea.

The East Coast Trippers are leaving today at 7:30

NOOO!!! My Victor and My Sam and My Yanina are leaving me!!! For one whole week. I can't live without My Victor. Or My Sam. Or My Yanina...

I have no one to complain 'I'm hungry' to in History. TT_TT No Victor or Sam to ask for food. [sniff]

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TGIF!!! AND OMFBOOB!

'Tis Friday the 13^th

ph34r.

Somehow I ended up getting a cut on my hand from somewhere.

I don't know....

PHENOMENA!!!

I don't even think I spelled that right. Anyways. Excuse my OOC behavior. The heat is getting to me..

No really.

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Thursday, May 12, 2005

Beiru by SPEENA

Cool band. Yume san likes.

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Rawr. I'm sick. Estoy enferma. Uhhh. I probably got it from:

My brother

Pan de Sal <--- A guy I sit next to in Science.

Meena <--- Who is currently at home with the chicken pox.

All day at school I was hoping that I don't have the chicken pox, because I never got them.

Well, my friend and I both have vaccines for them, but I guess hers didn't work..and..

WHAT IF MINE DOESN'T WORK EITHER?!

NOOO!!!! I won't be able to see the day when Gackt-san comes back. []

Oh well. I just hope I don't get it and stick with the cold. Because I have it right now.

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PE was horrible. While I was running, my friend said I was breathing like I had asthma. I probably do, just not that big. So yea.

We ran 4 laps. And gosh darned it. I got 14:06 It's okay. Ya know.

Blergh.

We also played this one game..Ovasion. Yea..STOOPID!! I hate it. Rawr. Teams broke alliances. [DARN YOU BLUE TEAM!!!] But everyone was aiming for the green team because they got the real fast people and had almost every one of the objects in their cicle.

Yea...Roland [one of the blue people] made me experience claustrophobia.

Now, I'm scared when he comes to close to my face. >.<

Not good.
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We changed seats in English today. I sit kinda sit close to Die-kun. [] Hahah. But yea.

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Better do my homework. Before I start thinking about Gackt-san..

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