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Yo.
I apologize for coming back and then disappearing. My life is currently chaos.
Remember when I said I almost lost a friend because she drank too much at a party? (Read last post) Ok. Well, just last Saturday Lucci calls me crying saying a common friend of ours died in a car accident. It would be interesting to give you people the details, so you wouldn't make the same mistakes, but I'd start crying again, and I truly don't want that.
Apparently a disaster leads to another... I haven't been able to sleep correctly because of homework for the entire week. And many other crappy events have been invading my life.
I am truly suspecting I might be getting depressed. You people might think "Don't worry, it happens to me all the time, you'll get over it". Yes, if it were in some other time... I think I am getting depressed as in the disease. The one you feel so frustrated and useless you actually have to take medicine for it.
I believe part of the reason is because I haven't had the chance to actually cry anywhere. My family's over at my house, and even if they weren't, friends have been coming over so we could finish projects. Then they have to go, surely, but I stay awake until about 2am (average of the entire week) and all I have time to do is take a quick shower and go to sleep. I could cry before sleeping, if my cousin wasn't sleeping in my room.
And forget about crying at school. Some tears fall when I simply can't take it anymore, but I abhor crying in public at all, especially at school. Phony people that never even say hi to you asking "what happened?/are you okay?" just makes the situation worse. I do have friends I could talk to, but this time it just didn't work out that way, for other million reasons I won't post.
There is so much more I would have to ramble about, but I'll stop it here. The post'll be too long, and I'll just bore you people anyways. Plus, actually writing this down makes me remember, and it's just too much at the moment. Every time is weeping time, just that I can't cry because something's in my way. So much for the group's "cold-hearted b*tch"...
No pic today. On top of everything, my pc also doesn't want to cooperate too much. Gomen ne.
Ja~
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