Sunday, February 26, 2006

scared to death!

The official date of my surgery is.....tomorrow!
I am totally freaking out..this morning I cried myself to sleep.I got off from work by 6am and I headed down to the church..and on my way home,,i bumped into our neighbor Shiela,who referred me to her surgeon,,she used to have lumps in her boobies too,,and she told me how the surgeon did it.She said there were 2 guys;maybe his assistants..and I should tell the surgeon everytime it'll hurt so he could inject anaesthesia.Im like,,its really gonna hurt!!!..i wanted to back out.And my mother will be the one to clean the wound everyday,,and I thought,,it would be bloody hell!..T__T

I wont be going to work for a week,,my officemates were wishing their goodlucks for me.Everytime they do that,,i get more nervous!

My sister and her husband will accompany me to the hospital.My brother-in-law is giving me much support i needed.He keeps telling me that the surgeon will cut through my breast up to my stomach.Im like.."im not a frog!"..Ahvic17 insisted that she will come too..I really dont want her to come..i'll get more scared!..But since she's my bestfriend..I allowed her..I wont win anyway.

I woke up 5pm..and its 8pm now..i dont wanna sleep!But im gonna have to do this tomorrow..(do i have a choice?)Earlier I was chatting with Tito..and he sent my prayers for me..*bows*..thank you.

Arrrgghh..i hate this.Im sorry Im not being brave..this'll be the first time I'll be admitted to the hospital..so bear with me.



Will I Live?


Blessed be...

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

im ALIVE..

yes alive indeed,but dying inside..

First of all,I am deeply sorry for being gone for so long.You didnt even notice,huh?..thats alright..I understand.

Ok the reasons why I cannot update in a month..*takes deep breath*..brace yourself,,these are pretty bad.Remember those evil things in my basoomas?..i mean boobies..they're back and bigger!..Actually,its never gone,,it got bigger this time..the size of a calamansi fruit.Alarming..so I was going back and forth to the hospital.Im preparing for an operation..maybe next week..next month or i dunno..im so friggin' scared!!..i dont know if i could make it.But i know its important to have this lumps remove before it even get worse.

Last Monday,my cousin's house burned down.The fire started from their neighbor.They said it was short circuit..dammit!..It was so terrible..half of the neighborhood were gone.Luckily, no one got hurt and they're able to save their 2 t.v's and some clothes.Im terribly sad because I grew up to that place with my cousins.We used to live there before we move to Laguna.And now its gone!..*sobs*..They're staying now at our Grandma's house.We visited them today,brought some old clothes and a bed.I literally cleaned out my closet last night.And the bed..twas my sister's,no one's using it since she moved out.Well..i use it..i actually use double bed in my room..so now,,i have a single bed..i just need to give that away.

on a lighter note...

remember my crappy computer??..rather my "compooper",,as noted by sesslover18^__^..its working now..though i need a new monitor because the images are blurry..at least i got it working,with the help of my dad's officemate..thanks to him.And also thanks to Jangalian for some helpful tips!..i wanted to give her a big welcome back but i guess its too late for me to do that..

How is everyone doing?..

Blessed be...

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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

day off

just for one day..i still gotta work tomorrow..i got off from work at 10pm last night..and I have finished the special job assignment!yay!..but last night..something creepy happened to me..Since its a non-working holiday..there were only about 12 of us in the building.We were kinda scaring ourselves because there was a rumor going on that there's a little boy seen on the cameras..that would then dissappear!When I was going down the stairs(made of steel)..i felt like someone's following me,,so I hurried down,,and I felt the staircase shake.I thought it's because I was running down,,but I stopped in the middle and turn..to my surprise its still shaking!..my co-workers didnt believe me of course...

oh..how is everyone's New Years?..fun?,,i didnt get drunk as planned..just a sip of red wine with my parents and thats it..


my Dad brought a computer at the house last night..and I couldnt get more happier..*sarcastic*..its from their office..thats suppose to be disposed..what am I talking about??,,it has no outlet..no f*cking AVR,,no mouse..no connection!!..i know my Dad didnt promise me that he'll replace my old computer..but who wants a trashy computer??..


Blessed be...

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

   working like a dog

[working like a dog]

hmm,,that line..i heard that somewhere,,i just cant remember..

about that subject..well im living up the title my friend gave me a long time ago.."a hard-working virgin". Ive been working overnight for 2 days..*whew*..and I still have to work on January 2..suppose to be a non-working holiday..but I have to finish this special job assignment my supervisor gave me. But thats ok,more work,,more pay.I cant wait for the next payday.

After work..Ahvic17 and I hung out at the mall..hehe..we had so much fun together..We went to this shop and tried some clothes.After we came out of the fitting room..i tripped..almost on my face..I gathered myself and shocked to see a cute guy staring at me.*blushes*....im so happy that I spent this last day of the year with my bestfriend..wish I could spend it all with you,,hehe..how about a MyO party at my house?..you're all invited!

about my last post,,thank you!..you were all very supportive.*hugs you all*..fortunately..im over it now..(the incident)..im moving on..and im planning to buy a new bag!..yeah..been going to work without a bag.,its hard coz i bring a bottled water all the time.

its almost 8pm and im loving the fireworks!,,im planning to get drunk tonight,,im not a good drinker but for my sister's request..im gonna do it.

Well..Happy New Year to everyone!..Its been a great year despite all of those bad things happened to me..It doesnt matter,,coz i have you all..^____^

this's from Princess of Mer..thanks Izumi!


Blessed be...

P.S. Its Inuyasha311's birthday today..go greet her,,I command you all..LOL..

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

   thief

i just read yukina123's mail to me,,and I couldnt help but cry..especially when I read the lines: "Please be safe on Christmas"..

Something bad happened to me yesterday.I was riding the jeepney on my way to the office,when my cellphone vibrated.It was Carol,asking if I want puto bungbong..(a food),coz she wants to bring some at the office.After I replied to the message,a man sitting beside me, snatched my bag and ran off!..I was so shocked.It was a handbag,my wrist was bruised..thats all.While he was running away I was thinking of all the important things that was in my bag..besides the credit card,id's and the 400 pesos in my wallet,my picture with my cousins was there..i couldnt think straight..i just screamed and followed him,,as if I could get to him.It was 5 in the morning and still dark,,a man who just pulled off a bus tried to help me..but he told me the thief got a knife.I went back home crying..i wasnt badly hurt hurt,just scared!..I know that experience was nothing compared to my sister,,it happened to her 3 times,,almost got raped!..but It was really scary,,the image of him snatching my bag from my wrist keep playing on my mind,and the feeling is still the same.Im still in shock right now..

Carol couldnt belive it when i texted her,she thought i was kidding.They were all sympathetic when I got to work,,it was suppose to be a happy meeting coz were going to exchange gifts..i got a pillow by the way..

Im traumatized,,i dunno If I could ride a jeepney anymore..

sorry if this is a sad post,,its christmas and i feel so down..

and im so embarrased that the cards i sent to all of you wasnt showing,,well if you didnt see it..here it is again:






Blessed be...

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

stressful!

christmas is!*whew*..
Ahvic17 and I went Christmas shopping last monday and tuesday,thats right!2 days,,and I went alone yesterday..i have to make sure I didnt forget someone.

Im posting kinda late,,and I see everybody's sending out their christmas cards!..ahh,,i have to make one too..for you guys..and Im running out of time..christmas is coming.

i know this is crap!..but this is the best I could do.




thanks little inufan!Im glad you still remember me..


this is really cute,thanks Izumi!


thanks again Sam!..its really sweet of you..


thanks to everyone who sent me cards!i love you all!*huggles*

Im sorry I wont make it to everyone's site today,,im in a hurry..and Im not sure If I will be here in christmas so Im greeting you all a very Merry Christmas!!!

Blessed be...

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

weekend

hey this is new!..2nd time i updated in a week!miss you guys already!

omg,Christmas is coming!..im being pressured,,because everyone's asking what Ill get them for christmas.Ok,im quite new to this gift-giving,,because every year,im the one who receives..well of course,,i give(in my own little way),but now that I have a job..its my turn now!..My sister's asking for a new bag..my Mom wants new shoes..and my Dad wants a bracelet.*whew*..including my nieces,nephews,friends.I have to work hard this following days!

Remember Jayron?..my friend who played a joke on me,,that he was dead?..well,,he's gonna be working at the same company where Im at!coolness!Im so thrilled when he told me that he passed the interview.He'll start January..but I wanted to see him already.I told him to visit me or Ahvic here in Laguna but he couldnt for some reasons.Oh well i guess I have to wait till January.

got this card from somegirl..thanks hun!



Blessed be...

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Wednesday, December 7, 2005

the Wedding - i got home from work at 7am..rush into my room, took a warm bath and put on my dress.My mom told me not to take a bath since Im tired from work,,but I didnt listen..^^..the wedding's at 10am..i need to look fresh!..we left our house at 9am and while in the car..i tried to get some sleep.The wedding's fine,,quite boring..i got headache trying to stay awake all day!

oh well that was saturday and then sunday;

Christmas party! - the party was alright,,i was a bit shocked when our big bosses partied with us while we were on the dance floor..The christmas party lasted till 1am
What i really enjoyed was the after-party...we all went to this bar,,and by the way it was my first time going to a bar..not that scary at all.I was expecting to see girls stripping..but none!..we partied all night..and i was wishing Ahvic17 was there with me.No other person to share that moment than with her.She was having a busy week too.And I havent seen her more than 3 weeks now,,i miss her so much.She was supposed to visit me today..but earlier today on my way home,I got a text message from her that she wouldnt make it because her boss asked her to work overtime!..I was so ready to spend the day with her..argghh!..T___T..she promised me that it'll be tomorrow.

thanks inuyasha311 for this card*hugs*



oh my,,its almost christmas..i have to work my ass off to make sure i got everyone presents!..

ok,,bye for now..have to get some sleep,,you know,,i work at night!

Blessed be...

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Monday, November 28, 2005

Dating..Wedding,,Christmas Party!

hi guys!whats happening?..its been like a year huh?..^__^

Alright,about the title..I went out with this guy from work,Alex.But he'd been to a lot before that..well not really.He'd been asking me since mid-November..the problem was,he would asked me on the wrong time.The first time he asked me,I was on a family reunion.Second attempt,I had to baby-sit for my sister.Third time,on my Mom's birthday.I thought it wasnt meant to be and thought he would give up.He didnt.Finally it happened,on Thanksgiving.It was the traditional date; movie and dinner,but I had fun.We saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire..i loved it!..About my date...he's not a potential boyfriend.We like the same things,and thats it.I think he likes me though.He would asked questions like,if someone's courting me at work or outside,and about my past relationships.I would try to change the subject then.I remember,I asked him if he'd seen THE INCREDIBLES?..i know!,,but thats the 1st thing came to my mind.Not that I dont like the guy,its just,Im not ready for another relationship.Im enjoying just dating now..and also its fun.You like,get anything free; tickets to movies or concerts and dinners!^__^

Ok our christmas party is 5 days away..and I was forced to go..compelled actually.I dont really wanna go,,i just dont think it'll be fun.My cousin's wedding is on Saturday,,then after that day..i have to go to that christmas party,and they expect us to work on Monday!!0_o..Its not going to be a Masquerade Ball anymore since everyone like got a problem wearing a mask.


i knew you guys would love these dolls from my last post!..i know their hair looks cool thats why I got that hairstyle..my hair looks like this,except the color:





oopss!..sorry this is getting a little long..(hey,im not always here so forgive me..)

i have one last thing to share..last wednesday(Nov. 23) was Marchie's birhtday,,I wanted to greet her so I thought Ill send her a text message.I typed in: Happy Birthday!bwahahaha!!!..since Ive known for my stupidness..I sent it to the wrong person..YUKINA123!..im like..arrgghh,,i use prepaid card so that message consumed the balance left in my card.But then I was so thrilled when yukina replied: LOL!Wrong number. I still have that message in my phone and Im not going to delete it...I was freakin delighted..coz I really miss her..

ok.cut!

Blessed be...

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Thursday, November 17, 2005

   feeling good!

last week,I was terrible!..feeling depressed.I dunno,I guess I just miss the old times..when I was hanging out with my friends.These days..im feeling like Im responsible for all the things,like I have to pay for the bills..do chores..baby-sit my nephew.I miss having a "me" time.I know thats selfish.I guess I just miss being a kid!*sigh*

Also last week,to add up to my bad mood,Jayron,a good friend in college played a trick on me.A very bad one..I almost buy it.I received a text message,I thought it was his sister.The message was: "Is this Karen?I just want you to know that Jayron killed his self last night!" Im like,should I belive that?Jayron's a major joker..and I really dunno when he's telling the truth or not. So I called him,,and he answered!..i was so relieved!..I told him to visit me at Laguna,coz I really miss him!But we decided to meet at the mall.So I was happy,again!

Last tuesday was payday,,and I gave half of it to my Mom.The rest is my allowance.I really should save money sinc christmas is coming!oh..I cant wait!..

Speaking of that,our christmas party at work will be a Masquerade Ball.Im like thats so highschool!..isnt it?..for me,yes.Just reminds me of school.Ahvic and Jayron is going back to school next year.Me, I dunno..whatever..I dont feel like going back.Ill tell you guys about it some time..

Oh,these are my latest addiction.Super Dollfie..i dont own one yet!,,im saving my money for it.Who among you have one?







Blessed be...

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