Sunday, July 8, 2007

genki+/akashi/koi no dance site
sooo yeah, i took new quizes but i forgot to copy and paste them so if you will please make your way to my quiz results page ^_^;

but yeah its really hot. not as hot as in arizona but it's pretty warm ya know. i'm okay now because i'm a master at keeping myself cool probably because i wear a hoodie all year round no matter how hot, though i haven't been wearing it recently.

but yeah that's pretty much it, i went back to wrigley and we took pictures and did the interview thingys and then we went to a subway we saw and i got a 6' veggie max sub that was soooo good. i think i'm going to become a vegitarian for three more days again.
cause for the past two years i've been a vegitarian twice and both times only for three days before i either broke down and ate something meaty or accidently ate something meaty...i actually think you guys would be shocked about the amount of things i eat and have no idea what it is, and i actually need to stop that cause i'm prone to die from various things in any given moment.

but chyea...im in volume 8 of deathnote and yeah L T_T NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO i already knew it was coming cause i saw the movie but it happened in a way different way. and REM poor REM. but whats scary is that i AM really like light. in a scary, scary way we are very similar.
but he's way more of an over achiever then i am, theres no way i'm working hard to get into one of any states or countries top university to be the poorest person there -_-

but i do like near and mellow who both have qualities that L had.
and its like no matter what i can totally find me and all my friends in any form of media i read/watch. it's kinda scary that i think about my friends that much cause i didn't used too.
i've actually softened up quite a bit in the last year which is really saying something because apparently every thinks i'm a mean hard ass.

and this has officially been my longest written post i think...and it has no type of structure that i can see. hmmm.

morning musume-genki+



EDIT: curse my mother and her current googleyness.

i have no idea what possessed my mother to google my fathers name but she did and found him...on myspace.

like seriously he's 47 with a myspace page and digital underground as his music. ew.

i mean i really don't like my father he's really immature and whiny and annoying and ew.
i'm just shocked he has a myspace page because i totally wasn't expecting and he honestly doesn't even cross my mind until my mother brings him up which she has been recently.

and he called a few months back like trying to establish a relationship because our's is pretty non existant based on my decision that i don't like him and he really wanted a relationship and he was calling me and stuff and i had to yell at him and tell him to leave me alone and lose my number...the whole thing wasn't very pretty.

and now looking on his page theres a whole lot of stuff there that i didn't know about him that he didn't even tell me about that makes me a little uncomfortable but just re-affirms the fact that he can't totally be trusted at all. and he has a chin piercing...ew.

but chyea the page is filled with things and my mom is like going over it to make sure theres nothing about her or me in there, which was actually kinda funny.

and then i found my never before mentioned to you guys half brother on there, he's actually my father's top friend.

he too tried to forge a relationship with me but it's off putting to me knowing that he's only a few months younger then me which just goes to show you about how faithful my father was to my mom. he tried to be like "brothers" with me in like the third grade but even then i didn't want anything to do with considering how he came to be in the first place.

we don't even look alike at ALL i guess i look more like a combo of my mom and father and he looks more like his mother. it could also be because he's skinny and i'm not ^-^;

i mean is it bad that i don't consider him or my other half siblings family, i mean i haven't even met or seen the ones from his third current marriage and i think i'm the only one out of his kids that doesn't have a relationship with him but again thats my choice...

do you guys think i'm being to harsh, i mean i know he's my father but i just can't consider him family, and i just can't consider his other kids my brothers ya know, thats why i constantly say i'm an only child. well that and i was raised as one since my mother left my father and took me with her and he stayed with tre.
and i mean it's technically not my three month younger brothers fault about how he came into being it just makes me uncomfortable.

but such is my wrath i guess, no ones is spared from it. not even innocent family members...that really aren't my family anyway O_o

but chyea rant officially over. hmm i wonder did anyone read all of that.

zone-akashi

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EDIT: is this not becoming the longest post evar.
because someone wanted to know what it was...the video that started it all ~*@#SEXY BEAM#@*~

morning musume-koi no dance site

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