Saturday, July 9, 2005

   eh? ....NANI!?

Lina.0_o

So much shit.

Hm, first off. I have some news about the DannyXRachel thing. He broke up with her. over the internet. (on his xanga site)
Of course she went from: Sad to depressed back to sad to angry to depressed to sad and worried.
Pathetic -_- BUT no no... the best part hasnt came yet. he left a comment on her site saying a whole bunch of junk such as: 'I bought you a bracelet with my savings. my mom got mad and made me break up with you"
Blah. Im so sick of it and him. I personally think theres much much more to the story. Hes not a very trust worthy person.
But then rachel called, breathing heavily telling me about it.
Honestly i dont care, but I (Hn...) love her and i try to support her. no matter how idiotic her actions may be.
Well i think theyre still broke up. personally im happy about it, i NEVER liked him. Hes an idiotic fool who thinks insults fase me.
He's an idiotic parasite.

Yea... ok, well anyways. im trying to make these shorter so people will actually read them. man 0_o i havent been getting many comments but i guess i should be happy about the ones i do get considering my lazy ass dosnt update or go to sites as much as i should.
Also the woman i call mother and I have came to an agreement (she shocked me with this actually) If i get all my Work turned in next friday (that means all mastered... remember im on a computer) i will get a shonen jump subscription. Awesome ne?
hee hee but you actually have no idea how hard it will be to accomplish. Science will take a very long time. So after this you may not hear from me for a week or two. not much has changed has it?
Hm. lol
I got shonen jump yesterday. They made shaman king way to damn short.
*shrug* currently im downloading 'The final' by Dir en Grey and reading a DEG Fan fic.
Yup. good stuff X3
Heh. i also watched viva la bam. XP My skate god. Oh and guess what! I WOKE UP! EARLY! lol. yeah its 5: 18.
I had woke up at 3: 30, and never went back to sleep. i think i may though im getting tired and living off of 3 and a half hours of sleep for two days isnt that smart you guys. hell but i never was.
hah. I was going to go with Rachel to her Family reuinion to keep her sane. (HAH) but after the whole danny shit. i dont think its ognna happen but she does wanna stay the night tonight.
*shrug*
Also we may go to media play tommarow. possibly, Haileys birthday thing is also tommarow.
*shrug* she likes me, shes 5, why not its her birthday, ill show up. Free cake. heh
I havent been in the best of moods as of lately, depressed for this matter. Im not sure why honestly. Deep down i think i may know, but its a foolish reason in my eyes.
There havnt been any fights really, and if there are theyre minamal ones with just yelling.
*shrug*
im downloading Some H.I.M songs. heh, go H.I.M
lol. Hm, well i think ive bored you enough ne?
If you wanna ask me a question for the QOTD, Go agead.
*shrug*
Ja ne all.
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Monday, July 4, 2005

   VIVA LA BAM!

BAM!

heh, yeah i just watched viva la bam! heh heh
*ahem* anyways, i finally got the song i wanted. heh, the woman i call mother burned it for me.
Yup, shes been having bitch spells on and off.
(oh and just so you know im on my old computer.... yup this one has winmx ^^)
Agh its so wierd to be back on this thing, becasue the measurments are all wierd on the screen. -_- shit.
Heh, fighting has ceased for abit.
I also got some songs i wanted from winmx. take advantage of having the computer with music?
HELL YEAH!
lol.
the song i got are:
Cemetary Drive
Vampires will never hurt you (both by My chemical romance)
Fast car-Tracy Chapman
All that ive got-The used
Ohio is for lovers-Hawthorne heights
Bullets with butterfly wings-Smashing pumpkins
REady Steady Go-L'arc~en~ciel
Super drive-Gravitation (opening theme)
and a song by ryuichi and shuichi. ^___^
im also going to get helena and 'join me in death' by H.I.M
^__^
So yeah not a bad day all in all. Mom is willing to help with my school work, since theres a lot on there, I know it all and my mind wonders.
lol
SO yeah, i expect her to go back on that soon. *shrug* oh well.
My school work anyways.
Rachel called today which honestly shocked the hell out of me... She never wants to talk to me anymore, only her boyfriend, britt, and the TV, oh and betty. So... yeah... They constantly tease me about finding a boyfriend, i think thats the only way they will hang out with me.
Great 'friends' huh? *sigh*
It infuriates me, and when we do get together thats all they talk about...theyre boyfriends...
*shrug*
Sorry these posts have been so long, my mind has been really heavy lately .
Shit i just went from all happy and stuff to depressed -__-;
Damn it.
Arg. I ned to get to your guys' sites.
QOTD: What are you listening to? or the last thing you listened to (so original eh?)
Hm, im listening to 'the rock show' by Blink-182
yup XD WOOT! gotta love em ^__^

Heh, i will be calling a skate store in Canada tommarow eh? (sorry XP) to talk about a board. Heh. this will be good, and i have to talk to canadians because i dont know any skate shops around here >_>;
Well im out of her... hope this wasnt to long 0_o
Ja ne ^__^
P.S. happy 4th of july ^^
you know... i hate this time of year, im so sick of screamers and booms.
WEll have fun
(and Donnas birthday is tommarow... than my aunt bonnies...Than haleys.... Damn 0_o)
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Friday, July 1, 2005

   You got a fast car, but is it fast enough so we can fly away?

Dark tournament

Ah what a day(s) it has been!
Well...
Ive been listening to 'Fast Car' by Tracy Chapman, and im trying to download it.
I love that song.
And more fights broke out, Yesterday mother (*twitch*) and Rick got in a fight about some shit. Well theyve been at each other lately, yelling and bickering. Quite pathetic really. cause its always when he goes to work.
We have to make due with what we have at the house while he gets wings everynight at work. And hes not giving us money for shopping, which we really need groceries... My mom says she hopes he chokes on a Wing. So i finally asked her why she stays with him (He pisses me off to the very depths of my soul and has for a long time) now if i would have asked that 3 months ago, it would have been 'because hes the love of my life! Id die with out him!' Feh so much for love, she dosent want to move back in with GRandpa. (remember she cant work) So yeah. im just sick of it all, currently shes mmaking Alfredo Bow ties for me and her. MMMMM ^^
be jealous. heh
*ahem* AND he has nearly 100$$ in his pocket (maybe less maybe more im not sure) and its red white and boom! (A fire works thing in columbus...) he works around there i might add... WELL there will be... A LOT OF PEOPLE THERE! (but i can see them from meh house...)
so yeah, hes a dumb shit.
and you know where i live.
heh heh like you could find me, and if you can you deserve to stalk me 0_o (why youd want to is beyond me)
anyways... Not much has happened, uh went to media play AShley got her some tarrot cards of all the goddesses, and i found some manga id like to buy (cant cuz were broke... well except for teh ass... his new title) called the 'tarrot card cafe' odd huh? lol
Then after that we went to salems lot (a pagan/wiccan store) AWW they had a cat running loose (suh its a witch store) it was such a cutey, it was a calico and it was 13 years old. very cute ^^ *ahem* also Ashley got her first Pentagram, and mom got a chalice (cup for an altar)
Than later we went to Wal*mart. mom bought Ashley some stuff to keep her Tarrot cards in (you have to keep them somewhere soft) and Mom got some fabric stuff to make a purse for the little next door nieghbor girl.
so yeah, i read some books and found one id like to get of the goddesses, beautiful pictures.
Hm, so yeah. i cleaned the living room and kitchen today at 7 in the morning. i was a little angry that mom didnt even say thank you or anything. but she probably thinks it was ashley. *sigh*
Ecspecially wince i hadnt gone to bed and i was very tired but was cleaning.
.Hack comes on tonight im happy about that, i cant wait to watch it. so yeah.heh
Ive also been thinking a lot about my Yusuke costume, i have my Sewing machine set up but im debating where to start. (help?) and i also need to get some yellow buttons when we have the money. *sigh*
oh and last night... WOOT! im done with L.A.!!!! Hee hee, i was exempted from most of so i got the last of it done ^___^ WOOT!
and i also got some Social studies and some math done XD
Well...
Qotd: what song do you think reprisents you teh most?
Hm, well i guess 'fast car'
WELL im gonna go ^_________________^
You guys have a good day
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Monday, June 27, 2005

   On the outside i look fine but on the inside i am dyeing

...

I just read Heather-sama's post... so much devistation...
I will fill in the summary...
Her friend, lost another friend to suicide. and she told us a very heart breaking story and how she did stay strong.
Suicide is NEVER the answer, you have so much to live for, dont end it.
And thuogh it may not seem like it theyre all people who do know what your going through! or worse!
Keep that in mind.
Trust me i know how easy it is to look at that option?
I have cut my self, I'll admit that, but never suicide...
Shit happens. so get over it, and learn that it will make you stronger

ok... i think ive made my point... and tried to do it with out sounding to damn sappy...

A bit on recent (and a bit more cheerful) accounts: finished #10 in gravitation, obsessed with my new papa roach CD, Ashley is up, and rachel may come over today. (just so you know its 6:14 in the morning... havent....went....to...bed)
WELL i also got in to a band called H.I.M!!!! hee hee... I now have a background of Ville!
Also we may go to media play today, so im happy about that. i want to see if they have the Viva la bam boxset. hee hee.
Yeah and the new season of Viva la bam is out on MTV ^_____^ YAY FOR MORE BAMYGOODNESS TORTURING DON VITO!
heh. Damn i just got a huge sugar buz... it will be gone by 8...
lol, see one bad thing about doing an allnighter is, if you make through the next day, you feel like you can stay up for days at a time (which i have done... record: 3 days 1/2 days)
oy and im also doing school work be proud of me!!
Hm...
Conflicts have also been in the house.
Money issues between my mom and rick. he dosent want her having money, and doing anything...
so yeah, everythings a mess. he thinks hes saving her time on her knees by eating on paper plates... FINE, but the idiot leaves them in the living room.
So as you can tell ive been very annoyed lately...
Yeah, if it isnt her its him.
*sigh* *shrug*
oh well...
QOTD: have you had an obsession as of lately?
NO! OBSESSIONS ARE WRONG! PEOPLE WHO HAVE OBSESSION NEED LIVES!
(translations: oh where to start!? well theres been an obsession with music and then viva la bam, and skating in period [when we get more money i may be able to get one... WHEE!!] hee hee hee hee hee *singing along to viva la bam theme song*)
like i said, obsessions are for idiots.
Well im outta here, im hungry and have to pee... not that you needed to know that.

Ja ne.
P.S. im sorry this is so long... i didnt mean for it to be, i was originally depressed (and still am i admit) but i ramble... GOMEN
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Friday, June 24, 2005

   So tired...

Mischivious miroku

Agh, thank you for all your support. i really appreciate it.
She hasnt really snapped my nerves since then. an occasional annoyance, she knows im still mad at her, though i am talking to her, I started calling her mom again the next day. (Though i didnt have to talk to her much since summer school has started, one reason im relieved about it)
So yea, i dont get very close to her unless im forced to be.
So yea...
Anyways...
Im signing up for a free RPG ^__^ im a dork, and i love this kind of stuff. Except D&D never got that... my uncles very big in to it..
Hm, oh yes on whats been happening... Hm, we went to cracle barrel today, we havent been there in a long time and i love there food ^__^
but none of our friends were working! T__T and they got rid of the tasty raspberry tea i love T_T
Hm... *playing RPG* hee hee hee
*ahem*
Im glad you guys like the layout, took me long enough to get up ne?
I cant remember who said to do inuyasha (Gomen nasai *bows*)but i decided to that, and of course i snuck in a cute little 'inuyasha and miroku' avi for Heather-sama ^__^
So lol...
Sorry i dont have much to say really... im sure many of you are releaved at that... again tired... dont mind typos... heh
oh but i did get to watch Comedy central today! very funny ^__^
Mostly gay comedians... Gotta love them! lol
heh
Well QOTD: ......please dont make me think.... y'all ask me something ^^
Well... im tired depressed (no clue why... a lot on my mind i guess) and im freezing so im out of here. XP
*hugs* again thanks for all the support it means a lot to me!
Well Ja ne
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

   Another Day... Another fight

But pissed beyond all belief.. (Zelgadis kicking major ass)

I am SO F****** FURIOUS! THAT-THAT WOMAN! AGH!
I can not STAND her anymore! THAT EVIL THING! (Be assured im trying not to cuss to much...)
AGH DAMN IT! *kicks something*
*huff huff* I shuold explain... what that THING im FORCED to call mother did this time!
ooook... WELL, today she asked me to pour her some tea whiel we were in the kitchen (Oh yeah somebody keeps spilling tea with out cleaning it up...and it gets sticky...) alright fine. i got her some, well the jugs we use are a pain is the ASS, and it was full... i spilled some tea on the table and foor.... she started yalling: "SO YOUR THE ONE WHO DOES IT!" and i spilled somemore (accidentally) then i put the Tea up and yelled "well you wanted tea! and it was full!" i went to grab a rag, she grabbed it and yelled: "NO NO ILL CLEAN IT UP! GET OUT OF MY FACE I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU!" fine i got pissed walked downstairs and slammed my door... poor door... *ahem*
well she started yelling how i never clean up my messes (LIE AND A HALF!)
Well she started yelling shit like she always does: 'i never get any help, your all useless, never help clean... blah blah blah'
Well somehow Me loving Yaoi came in to it she yelled: "THAT YAOI SHIT HAS YOUR QUEER BRAIN WARPED!"
need less to say... I WAS FURIOUS! one, a pagan is not to judge one on there sexual prefference. and she insulted two things! me being Bi! and me loving Yaoi!!
AGHH! *ahem* more yelling... she compared me to my friends (Yeah dont you just LOVE how they say well im not so and sos parents... yeah... [odd because i dont go around saying: WELL RACHEL GOT THIS! or ZACK GOT THAT!] ) yeah she said that my friends parents would never deal with my attitude... and more yelling... called her a bad mother.... called me and bad child...
Then she started yelling how im a fuckup about school... (True yes i screwed up this school year.... BUT IM PAYING FOR IT! AND I KNOW THAT)
AGHHHHHHH SHE INFURIATES ME! I CANT EVEN STAND TO CALL HER MOTHER, SHE DOSENT DESERVE THAT TITLE!
*huff huff*
Next time when shes sick.... I AINT HELPEN YA! (she was sick last night and i was taking care of her -_- yay)
BUT STILL! RA DAMN IM SO FRIGGIN PISSED!
*huff huff* Uh... yeah... i need to get that out, i can no longer stand HER...
AGH, i Despise her.
*cue music to the song: home*
lol, Well im in a bit of a better mood now that i got that out, i would tell her off but shes been prone to throw objects before, and im not in the mood to be pelted with objects.
heh, sorry i find that kind of funny.. *ahem*
Well... QOTD: (a hostile one) who was the last person that pissed you off...
Ha ha like this post didnt say it (incase you didnt get that THAT WOMAN WHO CONTRADICTS HER SELF...)lol.
Oh well....
Thanks for the patience, Gomen nasai, i know these rants get longer and longer, mbut she finds new ways to irritate me...
*bows*
Well im off to do school work... lets say it together now *YAY*
heh, Ja ne!
(Im much more calm but yes im still pissed. and also i hope you like the new layout ^^)
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

   Not angry

Wolf wood
Not happy...
Im not exactly pissed and im not happy. but my mother is getting on my nerves like she does every day...
Last night i was going to talk to Liz, BUT she wanted on, thats fine i was oging to get on after her... WELL, she was talking to her friend Cheryl (A.K.A Turtle) WELL mom wanted to see her, because they hadnt talked since... well... last time she saw her was about 4 months ago. FINE... i went (mind you it was 11 at night) well, we didnt leave till nearly 1:20! we didnt get home till around 1:40! well im usually watching anime about that time, so i went down in to my room to watch some of the last of it, i ended up watching most of the second viewings, because they kept me up all night, (You can hear everything in my basement) FINE... but in the morning she woke me up and made me put open the window (Theyre a pain in the ass whoever painted them is beyond stupid) thats fine, she let me get back to bed for a little while... well i layed there again hearing everything... so i got up kind of aggrivated. Well later Rick got up AND... she wanted him to go fishing with me since its fathers day. so she could clean... ok, well he NEVER fishes during the day... EVER... well he left somewhere, shes all bitchy that 'no one helps her clean' (Trust me once she gets you started she wont let you stop till midnight 0_0 )
im very tired because being forced awake, most of the night and today... im pissed off cuz shes yelling at me, and blaming a lot of shit on me... and oddly i feel calm. I usually dont let my mom get to me, and right now shes really not... ust an annoying needle pricking at my skin >__> (interesting way to put it eh?)
But... im also under a lot of stress from school, and my classes for next year, and summer school. ^^;
Bleh, i shouldnt complain really... Granted 3/4 of the time anymore i can NOT stand my mom at ALL... (i cant wait till ONE of us gets a blasted job >__> [she moight be working at the hyatt] curse it) and she usually blames shit on me for no blasted reason...
But, at least i can deal with her... *mumbles various curse words*
*ahem* ^__^; sorry for the rant, but its pretty much like this everyday and it gets old, Stress level... high...
*ahem* BUT i have started that drawing. im drawing naruto, and since i havnt given him any realy eyes (such as pupils) he looks like neiji [i believe thats his name]
I also have my summer school teachers. Kewl...
oh before i forget, happy fathers day Y'all!!!
I Got rick the CD 'songs about me' ^__^
Bonus points if you can tell me who sings that.
lol well QOTD: What are you wearing right now...
Hm what an old one but my brains on the fritz, forgive me... ill come up with some new creative ones soon!!!
*ahem* i am wearing a gret coca cola tank top with a green flannel over that with the sleeves rolled up to meh elbows, my baggy blue jean shorts (that look like luffys ^^) (and i know its scary 0_0 im not wearing black!) oh and undies ^__^ black and blue ones XD

oh one last thing... interesting things you guys eat lol!
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Saturday, June 18, 2005

   Interesng...

now lets say it together now...AWWWWW!!!

Well mother has been on my friggin case ALL day... Feh >__>
She has finally calmed down. so...were calm... lol
Rick went to work ^^;
SOOOOO... lol
I was asked by my friend Lizardpie (Liz) to Proof read her Work. was honered, that i would be one of the first to read it.
And it was very funny ^^
lol, not much has happened other than that.
I did start a Fan fiction, between Shawn and Cory from Boy meets world ^^; i have a lot of work to do on it though.
AND... im also joining my friend Isis' Contest. im in a bind though XP i know what and who i want to draw... but...
lol.
OHHHH strike of insperation. MUAHAHAHAHA!!! be afraid...
heh, anyways. I went to Rachels the other day adn stayed the night. I swear im gonna snap next time i hear the word danny...
*twitch* but she shortly stopped, then the next day when i was still over zack stopped by and we had an anime night that night at media play. ^___^ we met some people and made idiots of our selves. normal everyday things. MORE FREEBIES!
ohh i was so angry >.< i had bought an Ed key chain that i had been wanting for a long time so I FINALLY got it hee hee hee well the next day at the anime night they had the SAME ONE... the same 4 dollar one for free -__- oh i twitched. BUT im still happy that i got my little ed. i also got some inuyasha keychians and im going to see if i can bribe mom in to puting one on her keyring. hee hee...
we walked out of there with 20 dollars in keychians, and Ra knows how much in posters X3 i love anime night, plus we watched initial D. i liked what i saw of it.
OH, and i bought the first volume of Bleach. i had read a preview in shonen jump a while back and i liked it. lol Rukia and Ichigo are damn hillarious.
well.... thats about it... im about to get started on that drawing XD
QOTD: what was the last thing you or ate (or are currently eating)
im eating funyuns... YUM X3
lol well im out
JA ne!
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

   A real quickie...
Hey peeps, not pic today. my appologys.
I just wanted to catch you up on what been happening:
on friday my parents were ina car wreck. Rick had stopped breathing when my mom was on the phone with his sister bonnie (he was driving) and he slumped down and they started swerving left to center. she plowed them in to a wooden post fence. theyre alright, the car has a busted head light and the antenna was broken off (they had just dropped me off at grandpas so i wasnt with them) the guy who owned the fence wasnt mad but DID want replacing fence post, which we thought was very reasonable.
They have to go to court, for 'failure to control vehicle' which is why theyre going to court, compared to everyone else they were going slow, and he had stopped breathing. so it was 1. go in to the ditch and risk dieing (deeeeep ditches) or 2. wreck in to a fence and have minimum damage. *shrug*
SO yeah... also were going to media play today to get Ricks fathers day gift (mom says since she saved his life she dosent have to get him one. cheap skate >__> lol tis a joke weve been saying) and i might get a manga ^__^ if i have enough money...

and...IM OFFICIALLY OUT OF SCHOOL!!!... for 5 days ^^; then summer school. also tommarow is ashleys birthday Y'all! ^__^
Happy birthday ASh ^__~

Eh, also. when they came and got me they had gotten me the last 'misfits' T-shirt. i love it ^__^ its huge on me so i can use it as a bathing suite slip this summer ^__^ (just gotta get one ^^; )
We also got our Itunes CD!!! THANK RA!!! *huggles them*
I was also sick yesterday. go to my DA page if you want details.

I just heard about the Earthquakes in Cali. are all of you alright? I hope so...
Stay safe my friends, they think there will be a tsunami. your always welcome here ^^
(I hope your all safe though)
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Sunday, June 5, 2005

   Gomen minna-san ^^;

i wanna rock and roll all night!

Agh gomen nasai for not updating in forever!!! A lot hasth happened! well somewhat!
Starting... well whenever. The other day Rachel Britt and me went to krogers with Britts mom, sister and rachels sister. twas... interesting... but fun!
I pissed rachel off again but i really didnt care, it was just a joke. but it involved her and her 'precious' boyfriend so she got mad. oh well. niether britt or me really seemed to care. Later after we got off our asses (Me and britt mostly rachel stomped off) put the new issue of shonen jump back on the shelf (which i got last night *squeel* faust returned and iruka to!) and we went to T-turtle pets (a pet store... obviously) lol we saw a whole bunch of farrets, and we saw a guy sleeping on a bench. Its was kind of sad, but he wasnt moving... at all... which continued to giggling.
We moved on shortly after and we all went back to britts house (of course rachel was in a much better mood) i did get to start the 3rd Fruits basket! but not very far ^^;
Hm, then i went home and we went to the park and ate subway X3 it was funny,, me and my mom kept making perverted comments about every little thing and just random giggling. she said i had the 'gretchen willson' look going. i dont mind XD
Hm, Yesterday we also babysat 2 kids. i wanted to kill myself. they were very loud, and very... uh? well.. we took them to the park to play. after 20 minutes they were coming back panting and saying they were tired and chugging thier drink. i mean come on 20 minutes of swings, walking and being on a little bridge thing. they didnt do anyrunning!
Well All the boy wanted to do was play video games (hes 8 shes 4. its sad aint it?) and had no imbition to od anything. BUT video games. Now many of us are gamers. but COME ON! they didnt even know how to swing i had to teach them... they still didnt get it -__-;
And he got mad because we didnt go to Mcdonalds. (we were broke)
But she was a sweetheart.
I leaned hes a big fan of YGO! lol.
Hm. well we just got A/C hooked up im so friggin happy!!! because its no longer 100 degrees in the house!! YAY!!
QOTD: whats your worst or strangest babysititng experience?
oh that, and ive had a few others but wont go into detail. but in summary, i started out babysitting only a 5 year old, and by the end of the night i was baby sitting a 5 year old and a 13 year old. i was 12.
they were friends so i ended up babysitting them ^^; but they were prettty occupied in beyblading. *shrug*
oh well im gonna go play zelda and enjoy A/C!
Ja Ne!
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