Monday, June 27, 2005

   On the outside i look fine but on the inside i am dyeing

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I just read Heather-sama's post... so much devistation...
I will fill in the summary...
Her friend, lost another friend to suicide. and she told us a very heart breaking story and how she did stay strong.
Suicide is NEVER the answer, you have so much to live for, dont end it.
And thuogh it may not seem like it theyre all people who do know what your going through! or worse!
Keep that in mind.
Trust me i know how easy it is to look at that option?
I have cut my self, I'll admit that, but never suicide...
Shit happens. so get over it, and learn that it will make you stronger

ok... i think ive made my point... and tried to do it with out sounding to damn sappy...

A bit on recent (and a bit more cheerful) accounts: finished #10 in gravitation, obsessed with my new papa roach CD, Ashley is up, and rachel may come over today. (just so you know its 6:14 in the morning... havent....went....to...bed)
WELL i also got in to a band called H.I.M!!!! hee hee... I now have a background of Ville!
Also we may go to media play today, so im happy about that. i want to see if they have the Viva la bam boxset. hee hee.
Yeah and the new season of Viva la bam is out on MTV ^_____^ YAY FOR MORE BAMYGOODNESS TORTURING DON VITO!
heh. Damn i just got a huge sugar buz... it will be gone by 8...
lol, see one bad thing about doing an allnighter is, if you make through the next day, you feel like you can stay up for days at a time (which i have done... record: 3 days 1/2 days)
oy and im also doing school work be proud of me!!
Hm...
Conflicts have also been in the house.
Money issues between my mom and rick. he dosent want her having money, and doing anything...
so yeah, everythings a mess. he thinks hes saving her time on her knees by eating on paper plates... FINE, but the idiot leaves them in the living room.
So as you can tell ive been very annoyed lately...
Yeah, if it isnt her its him.
*sigh* *shrug*
oh well...
QOTD: have you had an obsession as of lately?
NO! OBSESSIONS ARE WRONG! PEOPLE WHO HAVE OBSESSION NEED LIVES!
(translations: oh where to start!? well theres been an obsession with music and then viva la bam, and skating in period [when we get more money i may be able to get one... WHEE!!] hee hee hee hee hee *singing along to viva la bam theme song*)
like i said, obsessions are for idiots.
Well im outta here, im hungry and have to pee... not that you needed to know that.

Ja ne.
P.S. im sorry this is so long... i didnt mean for it to be, i was originally depressed (and still am i admit) but i ramble... GOMEN
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