Tuesday, January 2, 2007

   I shall...
Make a MySpace! *dramatic background music*

Heh, yea... I have absolutly NOTHING better to do at the moment, so I will make one.

I go back to school tomorrow. I didn't really care too much about it earlier, but I do now. I miss "some" people. Then again there are others whom I'd like to see get hit by cars, but I won't go into that right now. So... yea. I don't have anything to say. Bye, bye.
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

   'Tis fun...
I just figured out how to break into my brother's computer and email accounts. I can delete my tracks so he'll not find out I was there. I feel so proud of myself...

I didn't fall asleep untill 4am last night... I'm still not really tired even now.

All I have is my DS and a black sharpie at night to keep myself entertained. I keep writing HIM on my arm... and drawing the logo thinggy. You know? The heart thing.(Sorry if there's a proper name for it. I can't really think of it at the moment.)

Tomorrow is New Years eve. My mom and I will be stuck in the kitchen all day cooking tamales. It'll be boreing... but it's better then what I've been doing so far on break: nothing.

It's been raining for the past 2 days. It's awesome... I don't care for it to snow anymore, I'm enjoying the rain all day.
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   -___-
Damnit I have his email but I don't know what to say. Hmm... like I'll even get a response huh?
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   Jhonen high! xD
Heh, I'm reading his livejournal... God I haven't laughed so much for a LONG time. It scares me. xD
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Thursday, December 28, 2006

   *Jhooooooonen...........
I'm looking through some fan pics of Jhonen.... and oh God.... some are scary as hell while other's make me laugh like a lunatic... but most of them are actually very well done.

I ish still working on my picture... however, I just put up a picture of *ahem* Princess Peach, from the Mario games of course. I dunno if it'll actually show up because this site hates me when it comes to putting up fan art. I think the message might of gotten cut off too... *sighs*

Whatever...

Don't you just hate it when people, you know? Try to act like you. It pisses me off when I talk to someone and I try to have a conversation with them and whenever I try making a point about something, they always seem to try to seem.... as into or deep as I am. Yes, there ARE other people who actually DO think like me and actually have a reason for acting like they do, but... just talking to people... more and more of them seem to be acting. No one seems to be real anymore. They act so fake... it's.... pathetic.

God I hate people like that.

*sighs* I feel another change of mood coming on... and as usual it's not a "happy" mood. So before I start ranting about something.... I bid you all farewell...
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

   O_O
I have the sudden urge to draw Jhonen...

It scares me...

Just thought you all would like to know that...

-Waffles (gasp! I signed it!)
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   Thinking of something to put here...
Well there really isn't anything to say about today. It's just been another day.

Yesterday I went to the mall. I got some new clothes... a pair of black pants, a sweater thing o-o, and another pair of pants. I also bought a cool skull necklace, the Postal Service CD, and some other crap. So yea...

I was going to erase the box for my music thinggy, but it screwed up all of the text in my site when I did it.

I've noticed that lots of people think that Hot Topic smells. I mean, that it literally stinks inside. Does it? I personally don't think so. o_O

God... I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night because my damn cough/cold kept me up. I felt like throwing up a lot yesterday too. My mom gave me some medicine.... that expired in 2004. Maybe it's just me, but I don't think that can be good for you. -_-'

I'm so lonely right now... there's no one to talk too...
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-__- My damn computer won't let me rip music!! Gahh!! I hate it right now... evil, evil computer.
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Monday, December 25, 2006

   Never hate him...
I feel extreamly special seeing my name at the bottom of people's friend lists.^^

My damn computer won't let me burn music onto CDs. Damnit! Gaahh... I've been trying to get just 1 song on a CD but the piece of crap is being a bitch and not letting me. Just 1 song damnit! >.<

Well today wasn't the best day. My brother pretty much ruined Christmas this year... just like he did last year. He's such a selfish bastard. God... I feel like beating his head to a pulp. He needs to get his ass whooped at least once, by me perferably, maybe then he'll learn some God damn respect for his family. I seriously hope he just dies. I know... that's... wrong, but if you just stepped into my shoes and lived here for one day you'd wish the same thing. Either that or you'd wish you can fucking kill yourself. Oh God... I shouldn't even complain. I feel like shit when I complain. I'm not doing anything about my problems... I'm just...
God. I hope this all ends soon. I really hope so.

I talked to my dad *thinks back*... on Saturday. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be simply because I didn't lose my cool. My parents were married for 13 years. 13 fucking years...

God... they were together for so long. Yet he didn't appreciate my mom. I actually asked him why did things end. And he said that I wouldn't understand because "I'm on my mother's side and not his". Eventually I got him to give me his side of the story of why he and my mom divorced. I swear that he would of won an academy award for his performance. He lied his fucking ass off like there was no tomorrow. At a moment, I even thought I heard him sniffling and getting ready to cry. He says that everthing is my mom's fault and that he's been taking the blame for all of HER mistakes. But he forgot to leave out all of the parts about him acting like a jackass. He's such a loser. He can't take responsibility for his own actions so he blames them on others. The fucker went as far as blambing me for his alcoholism(sp?)! I wanted to claw out his eyes.

He's telling me that I could "never hate him". He's telling me to remember all of the "good times" we shared together. I can't because the only good times we ever had was when I was a fucking little kid and didn't know about the shit that was happening around me. God. Every word that came out of his mouth during that phone conversation was covered in shit. Everything about him is covered in shit.

I hate seeing bitches in school wearing shirts thar say "Daddy's Little Girl" because they have a loving father who cares about them and their damn family. And those damn girl's brag about it. They're always talking about how great their dads are and all the rich, amazing things their dads give them. They don't appreciate it. They know it pisses, people who are in situations like me, off.

Those people don't understand how people like me feel seeing them and hearing them talk about their "perfect family" day after day.

God damnit... I just wish I had a good family. I wish that I didn't have the miserable life that I do! I just want to go to sleep and never wake up because I know that I can have a "good life" in my dreams. I want EVERYTHING to just go back to the way it was before. I just want to fucking be a bit happy. I mean really happy, not just some fake focade that I'm forced to put up everyday to keep people from bothering me. God I just want all of this fucking shit to end... I feel like shit. I feel horrible knowing that my life won't change anytime soon.


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Merry Christmas everyone. May all of your wishes, no matter how screwed up they are, come true.


Thank you to "EVERYONE" who's helped me survive this year. ^^
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