Friday, December 1, 2006

   Spread the love...it's scary..
O_o Today is World AIDS Day. I learned that today.... how interesting. Did you know that every 15 seconds, in Africa, a child dies from AIDS? Sad... is it not?

Well, I really don't have anything interesting to post. At the moment, I really don't have too much on my mind. I actually feel a bit at peace right now. I think that mabey it's because it's Friday. Friday is a good day. I can stay up all night and sleep in tomorrow.

I'm really just happy to be away from school. I seem to be hating it more and more these days. It's just the people I think. They make me angry. They're too full of themselves. They all believe that they are so much better than us. They think that people like me are at the bottom of everything. That we are inferior. You know what I mean? Like we don't really have a purpose.

I'm happy to know that not all people think that way.

That would suck...

A lot...



Thank you Erin for recommending this band to me. I <3 this song.
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

   I'm sleepy... as usual...
Hello. Today... seems like just another day I wasted. You know? It was one of those days that you really don't do anything(but go to school in my case), and at the end of it you wish that you had done something. That something doesn't really need to be something "helpfull" I guess, but it can't be something so pointless that it really doesn't count as anything eiter. I feel like I'm having more and more of these kinds of days. I don't know why though. It doesn't bother me too much, but once in a while it does catch up to me.

Hmm... I was going to type another "life's lesson" post or whatever the hell you want to call them, but I'm already in a not-so-good mood. So.... instead of getting myself worked up... I think I'll just save it for some other time....

I'm sleepy.... I don't want to sleep though. It's more time of your life that's wasted...-__- damnit....

Byebye.........
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Saturday, November 25, 2006

Another
Not really much has been going on lately. Aside from the usual crap that happens that is.
Well, anyone who reads my posts know that when I really think about something, I really get into it and I usually just end up pissing myself off in some way about the idiotic things that people do. I hate complaining about all the stuff that I complain about. I mean... it's just the internet. Right? People just read this or some of my other posts and think that I'm just trying to bring some drama or just complain, and they discard everything that I am trying to say. I really don't know why I make long posts. I suppose it's all about what I said earlier. I really get into it. Whenever I have my opinion, I'm proud to say that I don't usually go unheard. Whether that's a good or a bad thing is your decision I guess. But I feel like I'm rammbling on about something less important. So as I was saying, I think that most people don't believe what I'm saying on here. I mean, a 14 year old girl is usually into things like makeup, boys, shopping, and their family(I think) and I really don't care too much about anything along those lines. I don't make post about how lovely my day was or about how I do my hair or whatever. I feel so much happier typing something... well... that is actually important.

Pathetic as it may seem, it makes me think that I might actually be helping someone. You know, keeping them from feeling like I do. I mean, I know that there are other people out there that think like I do.(God please let there!)

Whether they think as deep as I do or not, I know that they do. I always find myself posting something along the lines of "don't lose your self-esteem". Why? Because it pisses me off to see so many people, who I know are good people, make themselves feel inferior to some other person simply because other people tease them. Why would you care about what some other person thinks about you? Its your life, not theirs. Don't let them control it.

But again, I feel like I'm attacking a whole other subject, I'm almost changing the subject again. But as I was saying(way up there), I feel like people really don't take me seriously. If you're a really close friend of mine, then you KNOW that I say what I mean, and I mean what I say.

I try, and actually do make myself think that I'm "changing" someone with my posts. I know, I know. That sounds very stupid. But just dreaming that hopefully there is one less person out there in the world that is so selfish, or greedy, or miserable, really makes me... happy. I mean, mabey someone who read one of my "self- esteem" posts finally realized that other people's opinion don't matter. Or mabey someone learned that the internet chatrooms are dirty places, or that the Wiggles are really depressed people whom we should kill. Anything like that I guess. -_-'

I feel like I will be getting a lot of PMs saying that I am way too dramatic about this. This is how I am. This is how I express myself on here. If you think it's "dramatic", then that is your problem.

Wow. Most of my posts have a "lesson" somewhere in them(Unless of course, they are pointless random things I say). I usually tell the lesson over and over again in the post too. But I really do hope that the people who read this comprehend everything that I'm saying. This post had no lesson I guess. I just felt... like saying what I did. I'm proud to say the weight of it all is off me... for now I suppose.

I know. This was a long post...

but thanks for reading...
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Thursday, November 23, 2006

Hello...
I'm in a ok mood today. Mabey because it's Thanksgiving. O.o See. The holidays change me. xD

I'm actually on a "break" right now. I'm helping my mom make dinner, which means that we're in the kitchen pretty much all day. Since our family is pretty small and because my dad isn't here anymore, we aren't making a lot of food. Just a turkey, mashed potatos, and a salad. But the turkey is BIG. O.o 16 pounds I think.

I'm bored. My friend Erin recommended a really great band called The Postal Service to me. So I'm just listening to them and some other music I downloaded.

Oh, the MOST AMAZING THING HAPPENED YESTERDAY AT WALMART. My mom found $200.00 on the floor. xD And yes, they were real bills.

Well, that's about it. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. *gives everyone cookies*

Buh bye.
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Why isn't there a crying face?
I feel like total crap right now.

Right now, I'm working on the picture that I will be giving to my friend Courtnie before she leaves. I know that she loves SpongeBob, so I had to change the whole design of the card. I feel very horrible. It just kills me to know that I'm making the last thing she'll ever get from us. I feel like I'm not just making a goodbye card, but a goodbye "forever" card instead. I feel so bad. She's leaving on the 29th of this month. It's the 21 today. Just 8 more days. I know that I will just lose it on the last day, she isn't just my friend, she's like a sister to me. We've been friends since the first day of middle school. So... it's going to be really, really, really hard to forget her.

I feel like crying right now. Just thinking about all of this makes me feel sick.
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Thursday, November 16, 2006

   *poke* O.O
I''m going to name all of my lesson teaching(lmfao), lectures that I post on this site "Hate People" posts. Heh, the name fits too.

Hope you people enjoy the new music I put up. If you don't, that's too bad.

Nothing new happened lately. I'm suppose to be doing a bit of reaserch for a project I have to do. Might I add that it's due tomorrow? lol. Well yea... I'm just finishing it today.

Today's lecture is deticated to meh friend Irene.

Irene!! Why are you bitching over a guy?!
I understand that a person can truly care about another person(I'm talking about love), but she's bawling because another girl is flirting with him(Let's call him Joe). Joe is a new kid in our school, but him and Irene bonded pretty quickly. He still doesn't know that she likes him. Irene always bugs me to give a "love" note to the guy I like and tell him how I feel. She says how easy it is, yet she can't seem to do it herself. She just IMed me around 3pm and was freaking out. I mean, I did feel a bit bad for her. She says that Joe would never like her because she was too fat, too ugly, and too short. I told her she's not fat or ugly. Yea, she's sorta short, but we all still love her. She's listening to what OTHER people say about her. A girl, her name is Brenda, always calls Irene short, and Irene really feels bad about it. She said that no person would ever want to go with someone "like her". She thinks that she is too fat and that she's an ugly person. And thats when I got pissed off.

Why the hell does she listen to what other people think about her? I actually said "Damnit! Why the hell are you listening to those damn motherfuckers?!!" I honestly meant it too. She shouldn't care about what those other damn kids think about her. It's what she thinks about herself that REALLY matters. Those damn kids at school are all the same. They all think they are the most perfect thing in the world and they take down the people who they think aren't. They can't fucking say who the hell we are! What gives them the damn right to do that?!! And Irene, WHY!?!? Why the hell do you listen to them?! Their opinions SHOULDN'T matter to you! They say all that shit to put to keep people down.

Am I the only person in the whole damn school who even thinks about these things?! No one has any common sense anymore! And worse of all: They have NO SELF ESTEEM! NONE! WHY!? Because they are too idiotic to know that what other people say or think of them, shouldn't matter!

Irene, yes, you might be a bit shorter than most of the other 8th graders, but who gives a fuck?! All that matters is that you love yourself. If Joe doesn't want to go out with you, then get over it and MOVE ON.

*sighs* But nooo. No one listens to me. I sometimes think that they just imagine that all of their problems will go away. News flash: They won't. Life isn't easy. It won't get any easier either. Don't make it any harder by listening to what other people think about you. Because then, you'll believe it. And then you're really screwed.
-____-
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Saturday, November 11, 2006

....
I just added 2 JTHM drawings... hopefully they'll show up. -___-

It's not the one that I took off... you'll have to wait for that one. ^^'

I'm cold as hell.... it snowed here on Thrusday night, but it melted the next day. 0_0

I finished meh quiz... whoop-dee-fricken-doo!

I'm bored now.... bye, bye.
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   Meh coffee ish cold -__-...
It's so horrible. Poor, poor coffee. o_-

I'm currently making a new quiz on quizilla. I luv making them. ^^ However, I have no idea about what it should be about. I thought about something along the lines of how will you die, but then I remembered that I already made somethig like that. And then it hit me! It hit me like a goose being run over by a moped. What about what color are you? I haven't made that one... so I think I shall make it. Heh, if you have any suggestions, please comment. I might make it but I'll be sure to credit you for making me waste my time on making it. Thanks! xD

I ish happy today. I wonder why...

Well... I'll be back soon. Bye, bye for now. Don't miss me too much. >:]
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Thursday, November 9, 2006

   O.-
This is a great game! Have fun trying to find Waldo! ^____^

Free Flash Games


I'm sleepy as hell right now... I would make a long post like I usually do, but right now I'm on the phone with Kevin... we're just annoying eachother and saying the most random crap. He's playing on his Game Cube and he's using the mic. So he's yelling out a bunch of random things like: LEFT! RIGHT!! GOOMBA! SUSHI! MUSHROOM! LEFT DAMNIT!

Heh, well yea. Good night everyone.



***9:38pm
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It's hard to let go...
o.o My speakers aren't working today. I can't listen to meh music... -___-'

Nothing interesting happened today.

I need to get some new JTHM issues. o__O
Oh, and I'm working on the JTHM drawing that I put up a while ago. I didn't have any time to work on it, but now I do. So it'll be done in about a week or so and it'll be up.

Oh, yay. My speakers are working again. ^^

We have a 3 day weekend, which is good. I've been feeling weird latley. I really don't know why. It's like a cross between feeling sad and happy. Like I said, my best friend, Courtnie, is leaving, which is the worst thing that can happen to me now. I actually just met her in 6th grade, but we've been friends since we met. My mom knows how much I'll miss her, and she says that I can write letters and talk to her over the phone, but it's not the same. I think I'll save money to fly over and visit her this summer. I'm sure I can go. We're going to go watch Happy Feet,(Heh, don't ask) before she leaves. And of course, one last time to torment people at the mall. I'll miss doing that with her. o_o
But yea... I think the subject speaks for itself: It's hard to let go. It really is.

Well, before I depress myself anymore, I shall talk about the "good" things that happened. Well...umm...
Oh, we had a sub. teacher in Algebra. He had a glass eye. It was cool, I don't know why the other kids were freaked out. Umm... anything else?
Nah... I can't really think about anything else. And technically the whole sub. thing wasn't a "good" thing eiter. He was acting like douche to us. -_-

I need coffee.... bye bye for now.
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