myOtaku.com: Conneryalexis

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1982-03-13
Gender
• Female
Location
• Canadian Prairies
Member Since
• 2004-10-13
Occupation
• Pencil pusher and paper shuffler
Real Name
• Con

Personal

Achievements
• I earned myself a University Dregree and paid for it all by myself..
Anime Fan Since
• Sailor Moon number one.
Favorite Anime
• Gundam Wing, WeiB Kreuz, Trigun...
Goals
• To turn myself into a responsible, healthy, and happy person.
Hobbies
• Staying sane, Pretending I'm funny, Maintaining my sense of humor...
Talents
• Pointing out the obvious, mixology, executing my half-decent fashion sense..

myOtaku.com: Conneryalexis

Friday, May 6, 2005

"Yes, I am on your side/
And I am all so blue/
And don't you feel inside that I still believe in you/
I still believe in you..." -Soundtrack of Our Lives (In Your Veins)

**Warning: Watch out for F-bombs today.**

You know those little digs a person can take at you, where it hurts a little but you shrug it off an just move on? Well, those little digs can really add up and eventually result in a big gaping hole. Tonight's dig on me wasn't even a direct one but I knew what the point behind it was, and I knew that this was the final stab that was going to bring me down. So, sitting there feeling angry and upset, my throat just closed up on me and I couldn't even say a fucking word. Not one goddamn word to defend myself. I made what I thought was a decent effort to at least stare this person down and not fall apart right there. You know, never let 'em see you cry? I'm pretty sure I failed in both departments. This person didn't say anything else and I'm glad for that.

I managed to hold back the tears until I got through doing some dishes and then I just broke. I didn't think they would be noticeable since my hair was kind of in my face, but they were. I made for the stairs, intending to just go down to my room and have a good cry. My sister (of all people) tried to call me back and made to follow me down there, since she knew I was more than just a little upset. She even offered to take me out for drinks and cheesecake (my favourite thing ever!). But when I get like this I just can't talk to people face to face. I'm pretty sure I hurt her feelings. Didn't mean to, but... So I had my cry and kind of forgot to breathe for a minute or two, which left me gasping for air and another couple of minutes of trying to catch my breath and make my heart stop threatening to explode... For fuck's sake, what one little dig at me can lead to, eh?

Anyways, I'm sorry to be dumping this on all you fine people, but stuff seems to come out better when I write it down. Really, all I think I want to do is to make other people smile, so I try to avoid posting crap like this in favour of something odd or funny.

I really think that I'd rather have any substantial comments in PM form today. That would be much appreciated if you guys have anything to say. *smile* Thanks.
Comments (9)

« Home

Anime | How to Draw Anime | Anime Wallpapers

Top of Page